Ji he chronicle two, four, six

Remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Wen Sheng

After many days of hard thinking, Laotian chose a new viewpoint. Taking the only remains of the educated youth academy in Nangang that year-a certain point in the sky behind the persimmon tree as the viewpoint, he looked down at the mountain and expanded the picture:

At the bottom of the mountain is Nangang reservoir. Under the persimmon tree, the mountain road leads to the village. After going down the mountain and crossing the river, it enters the village.

The village consists of three classes.

The old village is the first class and consists of the village’s large and small valley courtyard, the Old Kiln Courtyard and the grass house courtyard. The large and small valley yard is an old tile house in Ming and Qing dynasties. Most of the old kilns have built bungalows, and most of the grass houses have been converted into bungalows.

The bungalow is the second class and is divided into two parts. One part is in front of the old village, mainly built in the 1970 s and masonry-timber structure, with Adobe inside; One part is on the hillside behind the old village and on both sides of the railway, it is mainly built in the Eighties and Nineties of the last century. The brick-concrete structure is much better than the bungalow in front of the old village.

The building is of the third class, which is built behind the North school after the new century. All of them are small second floors.

At that time, the educated youth old homes were in front of the old village and later changed to small schools. Under the shade of big trees, it was not easy to find.

How can the educated youth recognize the scene of that year? Lao Gen thought of the slogan.

On the walls of houses of different levels, different slogans are written, showing different ages.

The slogan on the wall of the old educated youth courtyard is: The countryside is a vast world where there can be great achievements.

There are also many slogans: Prepare for War and prepare for the people. Learn from dazhai in agriculture. Realize four modernizations. Good family planning, late marriage and late childbirth, good birth and good birth. Build a socialist market economy. Build a new socialist countryside. Scientific development, ban on burning orange rod. Never forget your original intention and keep your mission in mind.

Lao Tian said: OK.

Lao Gen said: I can finally breathe a sigh of relief. Many of our slogans had been erased at that time.

Lao Tian said: Yes. For example, don’t forget class struggle, large militia divisions, high walls, extensive grain accumulation, no hegemony, blocking the capitalist road, stepping on socialism and so on.

Lao Gen asked: was the slogan of that year gone?

Lao Tian said: basically not anymore. Did you look at the picture?

Lao Gen said: you take a lot of photos. For more information, see.

Lao Tian said: What is the current evaluation of that year?

Lao Gen said: it will not change. It is a tragedy for a generation of young people to delay like this.

Lao Tian said: I remember a saying that this is a kind of love for us. There are not so many job opportunities in the city. If there is no job, you will learn bad. It is better to exercise in the countryside for a few years first. Why was Social Security bad in the 1980 s and 1990 s? There are too many young people without jobs.

Lao Gen said: Yes, it was severely beaten in the 1980 s and 1990 s.

Lao Tian said: in fact, now it seems that it is not worth anything. It is just that men and women gather together and run around with no purpose. They are fighting and being regarded as hooligans. Now, isn’t it just playing and singing together? At most, the style is not good.

Lao Gen said: There are also many thieves. After the 1990 s, they developed to block the road and Rob. If they don’t fight hard, they won’t work.

Lao Tian said: that is to say, if we didn’t go up the mountain to the countryside, we would do the same?

Lao Gen said: Hit the teacher, hit the school, break the old, and connect……

Lao Tian said: We didn’t do this for these late sessions.

Lao Gen said: but I can’t learn.

Lao Tian said: after entering the new century, young people without jobs are much more honest.

Lao Gen said: they all went to the internet cafe to play.

Lao Tian said: Now it is in the mobile phone.

Lao Gen said: Now it is adopted to expand enrollment. This method is good.

Lao Tian said: why didn’t you adopt it that year?

Lao Gen said: As I said just now, the school made the students smash it.

Lao Tian said: It’s really self-evil.

Lao Gen said: The more knowledge, the more reactionary it is.

Lao Tian said: What the old people mean is that if the idea is incorrect, the more knowledge, the more reactionary; If the idea is correct, the more knowledge, the more revolutionary. As a result, others were peeled off, leaving only “The more knowledge, the more reactionary”.

Lao Gen said: Yes, slogans are easy to be one-sided. There are also revolutions and promotion of production. As a result, only Revolution is mentioned, production is not mentioned, and even opposition is made. If revolution is needed, it is necessary to oppose production.

Lao Tian said: It was originally said that he would take root in the countryside for a lifetime. Later, he left in two or three years and became a springboard for work. If he did not go to the countryside, he would not arrange work.

Lao Gen said: now it seems that it is better to use it in school.

Lao Tian said: school cost?

Lao Gen said: almost the same. As you know, the first year was to go to the countryside with subsidies. There seemed to be some in the second year, but not in the third year. However, most of them left after staying for one or two years.

Lao Tian said: that was later. The earlier he went up the mountain, the longer he stayed.

Lao Gen said: Yes. Also, the bigger the city, the farther the place to go.

Lao Gen said: When that era is over, let’s not get too tangled……

Lao Tian said: Yes. In fact, we are not familiar with the countryside as our old predecessors. The educated youth of the previous years lived in the old and educated youth yard, and later went to the mountain. They had pie meals and scattered them to various production teams to farm, but we didn’t.

Lao Gen said: there are too many contradictions, so we have to move to the mountain.

Lao Tian said: many rural areas are like this. If conditions permit, they are all built with educated youth homes quite far away from the village. There are several educated youth homes on the Hill of Nangang. We said it was going to the countryside, which was actually very isolated from the peasants at that time. But I know how bitter it is to grow crops.

Lao Gen said: there is no way. People have different lives. We almost included the opportunity to join the army, recruit workers, and be recommended to go to school, and recruit young people in the village to hate.

Lao Gen said: Fate is unfair to us.

Lao Tian said: Is it fair to rural people?

Lao Gen said: rural youth are more bitter.

Lao Tian said: Many people still hold resentment because of the past.

Lao Gen said: put it down.

Lao Tian said: some people can’t let it go until now. Educated youth literature.

Lao Gen said: There are all kinds of mentality in educated youth literature.

Lao Tian said: There are many complaints.

Lao Gen said: it should be understood. After all, we have a certain sense of superiority in our hearts.

Lao Tian said: it is impossible to elaborate.

Lao Gen said: You still have to say it. You can’t forget the past. Just don’t get too deep, do you want to look forward.

Lao Tian said: Yes.

Lao Gen asked: How did you feel when you went back to the village to have a look?

Lao Tian said: mixed feelings.

Lao Gen asked: is the old slogan still there?

Lao Tian said: there are still some.

Lao Gen said: The old slogan is on both sides of the main road of the old village, from the three milk temple to the road on the waste bank.

Lao Tian said: Yes.

Lao Gen said: find one of the most representative in it.

Lao Tian said: I think “promising” is the most representative.

Lao Gen said: remember to go down the mountain from the educated youth courtyard, you can see a slogan when you cross the river and enter the village.

Lao Tian said: What team of cattle compound, later worked as a wooden factory, what came the slogan on the wall?

Lao Gen said: Come to think of it, the way out of agriculture lies in mechanization.

Lao Tian said: Yes, yes, people of any age have ideas about this.

Lao Gen said: OK, I believe many educated people will have feelings after reading it.

Lao Tian said: Yes, we wanted to farm mechanization at that time, and farming was really too tiring……

Lao Gen said: People have long hoped that this is the case. The wood is……

Lao Tian said: Also, water conservancy is the lifeblood of agriculture.

Lao Gen said: We have worked hard on water conservancy.

Lao Tian said: we need to build small hydropower stations.

Lao Gen said: this has already existed and has not been completed.

Lao Tian said: is it a reservoir in the west of the village?

Lao Gen said: Yes, there is only a long Dyke left now.

Lao Tian said: are we not involved?

Lao Gen said: No. Built in the 1950 s.

Lao Tian said: I remember. I heard that it was repaired in the county, but later the county did not care.

Lao Gen said: railway police, each tube section. Our commune is located in the city, of course the county doesn’t care.

Lao Tian said: The county thinks very high. The water in this reservoir is linked with the next reservoir, pumping water into the canal to irrigate crops. The Canal goes half of the county, it has already been abandoned.

Lao Gen said: later, the county built a reservoir in the back, but the canal was still useless.

Lao Tian said: there is no water.

Lao Gen said: I heard that there was a big flood one year and the levee on the other side was blown up, so the dam was saved.

Lao Tian said: in fact, it is to let the water go along the original river, but this river has almost been abandoned. This also tells us that waste rivers cannot be filled casually. Speaking of it, the old village in Shilin BLACK TOWER village will become an island in the river.

Lao Gen said: really? At ordinary times, we only see the Jihe River flowing in the south of the village, and sometimes it is cut off.

Lao Tian said: Really. Later, it seemed that there was another flood in July or May, and the village once became an island. At ordinary times, there is no water in Jihe River. First, the water vein is cut off by the coal mine, and second, a reservoir is built on it.

Lao Gen said: If the hydropower station runs well, we wouldn’t call at midnight every day.

Lao Tian said: Tell you the reason why the power station is not good. The lack of water in the reservoir is one reason, and the other reason is that the BLACK TOWER in the village was dismantled as the material for building the hydropower station.

Lao Gen said: Ah, is there such a saying?

Lao Tian said: Believe it or not, the tower has long been broken anyway.

Lao Gen said: BLACK TOWER has been repaired again?

Lao Tian said: it has been repaired.

Lao Gen asked: how is it?

Lao Tian said: Elders people said that was the case.

Lao Tian said: when we all left, the village had been mechanized to a considerable extent. The brigade had creeper tractor, the team had hands and small four-wheel tractor, and our youth team also had tractors. Some teams also have harvesters, which can only be cut, which cannot be compared with now, and some teams also have sideline groups.

Lao Gen said: with tractors, people are more reluctant to work hard on the land.

Lao Tian said: young people are like this. They don’t like it because they take their seats and drive cattle to work in the fields. Not everyone can do it.

Lao Gen said: Yes, there are also landlords who drive the carriage. Advanced things appear, and some people are happy and some worry.

Lao Tian said: but those who drive tractors are definitely not qualified.

Lao Gen said: if it is not dissolved, it may become the second Huaxi village and Nanjie village……

Lao Tian said: Now many people talk about these two villages, and collectivization is also promising. If it is not dissolved, there should be many villages like them……

Lao Gen said: this is a special case. There is no universality. To say, if there is no market economy, they will not be like that.

Lao Tian said: the leadership team is tough and insists on making no distinction. The key is to get the collective economy together.

Lao Gen said: After the woodworking group was set up in the Animal Farm, the production in the team went up. Some people were jealous and edited children’s songs, singing them to follow the capitalist road and cutting their tails.

Lao Tian said: I remember, “the five teams take scissors, waiting to cut the tail of the six teams.”

Lao Gen said: you have a good memory.

Lao Tian said: this thinking is terrible. In the words of the Internet, think carefully.

Lao Gen said: this will not happen in the future. Unfortunately, the woodworking team was disbanded.

Lao Tian said: the equipment of the wood team has been divided. People in the wood industry team also hope to be divided into Tian. Everyone’s mentality will be divided into everything.

Lao Gen said: Some tractors almost split eight pieces. Do you think it is valuable to split them? It can only be a pile of scrap iron. Speaking of it, the village didn’t divide the land until the end of 82 years, and many surrounding villages had already divided the land for two or three years.

Lao Tian said: The slogan on the wall has been on the wall for many years.

Lao Gen said: Mechanization also means a lot. For example, the land is still concentrated in the end, and now it depends on the spread and concentration.

Lao Tian said: To be honest, I really want to plant some food and vegetables buns, raise some small poultry, raise some small machinery, and live a pastoral life.

Lao Gen said: I have thought about it like this. Watching a small video, someone wrapped up barren hills and used bulldozers to build terraces. The scale can go up……

Lao Tian said: We don’t have that condition here. There are many people and few places, so we can only work hard in small areas.

Lao Gen said: people are on the Loess Plateau. In the past words, they built Dazhai fields.

Lao Tian said: building reservoirs, power stations and Dazhai fields mainly focus on class struggle, which was the main theme of our time.

Lao Gen said: We were self-reliant at that time, building schools, running water conservancy, building roads……, They all come by themselves, and now they all rely on state subsidies.

Lao Tian said: now there are also those who go up to the mountain and go to the countryside. The new one is volunteers, and the second is that many departments in the town send people to the village to be secretaries.

Lao Gen said: how many volunteers are descendants of educated youth?

Lao Tian said: there should be descendants of educated youth. Going to the countryside can exercise people best.

Lao Gen said: it is good to go to the countryside with resources.

Lao Gen said: therefore, people from strong departments go to the countryside to help them easily make achievements.

Lao Tian said: It is also very important to do ideological work. Do a good job of changing customs and making people spend money on production.

Lao Gen asked: is Nangang reservoir still there?

Lao Tian said: still there. We have participated in the construction of this reservoir, and we also imagined to build small hydropower stations.

Lao Gen said: Yes, when we go to the countryside, we will have enough suffering from the lack of electricity. As long as the reservoir is built in the village, we always want to continue to build small hydropower.

Lao Tian said: Unfortunately, Nangang reservoir can’t have hydropower at all.

Lao Gen said: After you entered the city, you also dug coal. Do you want to dig too much coal and generate more electricity to solve the problem of electricity consumption of rural fathers?

Lao Tian said: Is this still useful?

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and youth without any regrets more.

Lao Tian said: Zhong. I didn’t say it last time. Pockets circle, I still recall my dream of youth.

The Ji he Chronicle series are all original

July 3, 2021

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It seems that I haven’t written anything for a long time! The sun is still so poisonous and spicy, and the mood is still the same. This year’s time passed so fast. Except for a so-called relationship, it seems that nothing has been left. I don’t know how to start, I don’t know how to tie the bundle.

I remember that there was a mushroom cool who rushed to hug you with joy at the beginning. I miss the scene at that time very much. It has nothing to do with any external factors. I am happy to be together and talk about my future life together, all the good things went out in a blink of an eye, as if they had never been seen before.

There were heavy rains everywhere one after another, and all kinds of floods and disasters arrived, which made people overwhelmed. Maybe you don’t know, I like rain very much. Because after the heavy rain, the air is always filled with melancholy, maybe I have always been a melancholy person. But somehow, this year, I am especially tired of the endless weather of sunny and thunderstorm.

A few days ago, I took shelter from the rain in the convenience store. Looking around, there were many people who didn’t like to bring umbrellas, and some secretly felt relieved. Suddenly, I felt that this group of people who were embarrassed to hide from the rain seemed to leave home Little Fugitive one by one, waiting anxiously for someone to claim it. It’s just that I’m waiting for the rain to stop. It is said that children without umbrellas should run hard,

I never thought I would miss you like this, nor did I think that one day you would leave. I always planned the future for us without authorization and imagined many wedding scenes, it happened that all these became fantasies. When I thought about them, I always couldn’t help thinking about them in my mind, and then I completely forgot that there was such a thing as wishful thinking. So that finally, unconsciously, my wishful thinking brought your separation. “Zheng Shaoqin, Zheng Jingyi” how painful a few words, when the child does not have the moment who can know the pain in my heart, a person hiding in the toilet crying in the middle of the night, after crying, wash your face and then sleep. Maybe money is really important. I was naive to think that someone really didn’t care about it. Ha ha, silly or not.

I have always felt that breaking up is a very serious matter. It seems that we started with words on WeChat and ended with words on WeChat. From the beginning to the end, there seemed to be no phone call, it makes two people who once fell in love become strangers instantly. Even if they feel so deep that the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, they will not be able to say that they don’t want to marry. Maybe you don’t love you as much as I do, our love is too fragile to hold up our dreams. We can’t beat the reality. Finally, we can separate. It seems that we are not so sad when we think about it.

We have been separated for 17 days, and we have broken up for 13 days. So fast, we have all had a tacit understanding for 7 days and have never contacted each other again, as if we have never appeared in each other’s lives. Now I will only suddenly think of you in a specific situation. Maybe this is also the best ending.

At this moment, I miss you again, but I can’t find any reason for you to continue. You don’t want to see me now. I always use cigarettes to paralyze myself, the smell of alcohol on my body makes me hate myself. Looking at the house full of traces of you, there will always be inexplicable sadness.

At night, touch your face with your hands, empty, leaving only tears on your face.

Maybe there is no chance that the story will end here.

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More and more things

Thinking of last year’s present

I first met you

Everything is so beautiful

Accompany you to work every night

I can chat with you until late at night every night.

Under the weekend sun

Our Shadow is swaying

Everything is like a dream

In this silent room

It’s over

I heard

The sound of heart breaking

It’s so harsh

I see

Your figure

More and more blurred

I want to lift my weak left hand

Try to hold your pace

Everything in reality makes me

Can’t afford to lift

But I can’t let it go

The wind shivered in the cold night.

Strange changes in midnight dreams

Every time I Dream of You

But always pass

I don’t want to miss it

Still want me to forget

Forget all the parting and goodbye

No more news from you

No more your response

All the familiar past

Knowing that you are in this city

Ink red fluid can’t bring everything to you

It’s vicissitudes of life

Or the dark night epiphyllum

When the prosperity is over

Where are you

Thoughts falling in my heart

Deceive the inner silence

Ah

I’m still trying

Waiting for You

I don’t have the ability

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Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

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He has been studying abroad for four years, and I have no intention to know that he has been keeping in touch with my good friend Jingjing to learn about my latest developments. But those four years were a nightmare for me. I kept escaping every day, avoiding facing the real life and bearing a heart of fear all the time. My whole body and mind were in fear, when I saw him again, he was already a father. On that day, when college classmates gathered, we were silent. I saw his eyes were full of thoughts, and I saw him become very mature. Looking at his wife, I have a familiar feeling. I look carefully. My eyes and teeth are like a person, especially a smile. Looking at them, they look very similar to me. I once remembered that he wanted to find a cheerful, optimistic and smiling person, hoping that this woman could bring him happiness and happiness. Thinking of ten years ago, our personalities were too similar and childish. I didn’t expect time to catalyze him into a strong and solid middle-aged man. In the past, Green Day always mistook him for his mother BABY. Maybe this is fate. Some people are destined to be a symbol in life and a beautiful memory. At the right time, meeting the right person is fate, that is a blessing in life. Looking through his WeChat and seeing his wife and son, we knew that we got married in the same year and had children in the same year. Thinking of a long time ago, before he went to Australia to study abroad, he confessed to me on QQ, but why didn’t I promise at that time, maybe it was fear. I was afraid that he would look down on my brother, maybe it is worried that he fell in love with his classmates when he went to study abroad. Later, he chatted with me again and told me a lot of things. I still didn’t agree. I wanted to be injured I am for fear that I couldn’t stand the blow of lovelorn. Later, we met again. He asked me again and again if I had a boyfriend. I said there was a man chasing him. He also said that there was a girl chasing him, I know he still hasn’t given up on me, but I am still not touched by him. Maybe we are doomed to have no fate in this life. Only after that time did I know that it was the last conversation that we were single. Everyone had his own destiny. When I met him, I couldn’t choose. Maybe this was fate. A time of love, I wandered in another place; When I came, he walked into the next intersection. Therefore, between walking and stopping, many people missed each other’s fate. Many years later, I was surprised to find that we are the people of the same world. I never looked at the boy who was close to me when I was in college, and even said no praise, so I refused him out. Phobia is really terrible. It subverts my outlook on life and values and makes me make different choices. Only then did I understand how ridiculous my thoughts were at that time when I was suffering from phobia. At that time, I, how pitiful, in order to protect yourself from getting hurt, I frozen my heart to the valley until I turned myself into a terrible hedgehog. Most of the time, we are not afraid of losing. More importantly, we can’t let go. We always thought that others would not accept such an ending. We didn’t think that the person who couldn’t accept such an ending was ourselves. The vast sea of people, how many people really find their most perfect belonging, how many people miss the best chance in passing, or how many people are standing at the wrong time and place in the right choice. If they have time to stay between people’s thoughts, give them some time to make missing become a kind of fault. Those years, our ignorant years; Those years, the love we missed, Haruki Murakami, said that if we love each other, we can carry our hands to the old; If we miss it, we will protect him well.

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After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

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Zhou Jing, a name that makes my heart beat and impulse.

She, my middle school classmate. The face is fair, the appearance is good, and it is considerate. Therefore, in our class, she huamel Noble like a princess.

At the first sight of her, I fell completely. Those beautiful big eyes, shining with charming brilliance, hit me instantly like bullets, it took only 0.0 seconds to capture my whole body and mind, making me love her.

That summer, I realized my college dream.

In the second year, Zhou Jing miraculously recorded the Hydropower Institute which was only one wall away from our school.

On the day she checked in, I went to their school to find her with anxiety. The new student newspaper is everywhere. When I see her plump and high, my heart is empty and itchy……

Zhou Jing in front of him is more charming and charming than that of middle school. I was suddenly in a mess and ran to meet with trembling mood!

On the way to find her dormitory, my heart drifted along her steps on the tree-lined path of their school. Taking advantage of the chaos, I walked to her boldly and summoned up the courage to strike up a conversation with her.

That day, we said a lot. To be honest, this meeting gave me an excellent impression. It encouraged me and gave me the courage and confidence to approach her. From then on, everything around me disappeared, and the sun, moon and stars rose and fell, but I didn’t know the day and night.

The following development made me very happy. I had frequent contacts and pleasant exchanges with Zhou Jing. She didn’t defend me, allowing me to approach her freely. This discount alone raised my soul beyond my own height.

From then on, I think falling in love with someone is a happy thing and a torment thing. In order to see her entity and say a few words to her, I tried my best!

“I’m going to find Zhou Jing!” As soon as Zhou didn’t arrive, I looked at the beautiful sky happily and shouted. After dinner, nothing can be done. Everything is intertwined in this expectation.

I also decided to go to Zhou Jing less frequently. But can I do it? I am tempted every day, and I make a sacred promise every day in my heart: “Don’t go to Zhou Jing next week!” However, when I arrived next week, I found another reason that I couldn’t reply. In a flash, I arrived at the door of her dormitory. Or the last time she broke up, she said, “See you next week!” Zhou Jing said so. Why don’t I go to her!

Of course, Zhou Jing often came to my dormitory to find me. At that time, I was really very happy. As soon as her figure flashed in the window of the dormitory, I couldn’t control myself. My eyes followed her figure. I hoped to hear her magnetic voice, eager for her to call my name, and thought that was the most beautiful melody in the world.

Zhou Jing and I often go for a walk along the Xiangjiang River. She walked in front, I followed behind, we walked and talked endlessly. When she moved closer to me for the convenience of conversation, the wonderful breath out of her mouth could be sent to my lips. At this time, I was like being shocked, the body is going to collapse. When my hands accidentally touched her or our bodies accidentally collided, oh my God! The blood rushed around me, and I immediately retracted like a fire. However, a hidden force was pulling me forward again, and all my senses were dizzy, like flying clouds and fog.

During the conversation, she accidentally passed her eyes, and I would tremble, be happy, sad and depressed…… All my thoughts were intoxicated in her tender eyes, and I was so excited that I became immortal. Only at this time can I freely appreciate her black eyes. Her vivid lips and lively cheeks attracted my whole soul without hesitation.

She opened her mouth and just spit out a note, I was completely intoxicated in her wonderful voice. All my body and mind immediately integrated into the world of Only me and her, it seems that being with her is everything to me. Besides, I have nothing to think, nothing to feel, nothing to ask for. All the pain, disorder and depression that troubled me disappeared without a trace. She mentioned every word of mine, more like the harvest year in the wild scene, which made me think about it endlessly, you have to narrow and dry the bone marrow in that sentence. Therefore, I became a man deprived of all thoughts and freedom, immersed in the world given to me by Zhou Jing, enjoying the sweetness of wishful thinking.

Alas! It turns out that I am only one step away from heaven, wonderful!

Later, she turned language into a trickle into my heart to moisten, heal and comfort my heart, and let me feel and appreciate many rich and profound meanings, and enjoy her painstaking care.

Slowly, Zhou Jing and I talked about everything, literature, dreams, life……

With the passage of time, I gradually found that Zhou Jing is a person who gets along more and more liked.

Although I knew she was beyond my reach, I really couldn’t control my emotions.

After graduating from college, I went south to Guangzhou and Zhou Jing went back to my hometown Yiyang.

Later, we became families. However, my relationship with Zhou Jing was like a pot of fine wine, which was hidden in the cellar. Occasionally, I open it and smell it. I feel that my heart is full of mellow fragrance, and there is also the aftertaste of love?

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

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Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

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Cold and sunny

The sunshine is very good. I shot in through the window. My face felt a little hot, but my hands were still cool.

I sat at the window and desk.

My mind was blank, and my eyes were sore, so I could do nothing with the hard sunshine.

Because it doesn’t shine in my heart.

The air conditioner is still working hard, blowing the same warm air. The house is quite warm. Sunshine brings light, and warmth depends on it.

Outside the window is the world of the sun, but also the cold world. Seven or eight degrees below zero, it is rare here at noon. Such bright sunshine seems to be a lie.

The blue sky, without clouds, seems to be a lie, sunny and false.

No flowers, no green trees, no birds, and few pedestrians. The sky is just clear, and the sky is only clear.

So many people in the past were in books, or suffering, or struggling, or happiness, spread out on the table, the sun shone on it, the night was still the night, and tears were still moist. I occasionally immersed in it, but soon, those sufferings or happiness fell into the blank abyss in my mind, and there was no reply.

Some bright light like a hairline, walking upstream of the book, Walking upstream of my hand. I don’t know where it came from or where it went. Perhaps, they are not wandering at all. The first one has disappeared in the universe, and the later one has entered in ignorance. For the universe, it is not even a moment.

I only looked at them a few times and felt bored. They didn’t come to see me.

Lit a cigarette, the cigarette went out from my fingers, and even flew to the window without knowing the height and height, flying to the sunshine, but unfortunately there was no place for it to escape, and he came back in a conversation, it seems that there are some shadows flying over the book, but unfortunately the shadow is not bright golden.

I opened the window, but the smoke quickly fled to the room. The clear world did not contain it, it was a lie, no sorrow and sadness, that was afraid of being burned into smoke, it is also toxic.

And the cold air rushed in immediately, and they didn’t want to let go of every warm corner. Although there was no sound, although there was a brilliant lie, it was cold, which made me shrink into the cold immediately.

I shut the cold out of the window, and there was a string of small shadows in the book. I knew that it was the dirt left on the window glass by years. I haven’t noticed them at ordinary times, but at the moment, they are like a string of vicious eyes.

The whole world is sunny, but that is a lie.

I curled up in this small house, my mind was blank, but I was awake.

I know you must see TTL far away today. The weather is so clear, but the air is cold. The tombstone you just raised last week must have cast a black shadow.

I dreamed of you last night. The warm smile was real, not like the sunshine outside the window and the lies of the whole world.

December 30, 2020

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

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I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

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The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

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The Qixi Festival is approaching, and the beautiful love story has become the Valentine’s Day in the hearts of young people. In commercial squares, university gates, parks and other places where young men and women gather, it is obvious that there are more vendors selling flowers. Once on the campus of the university, my roommates such as Lu Junqing and Lao San also sold flowers, and witnessed Lu Junqing’s love with a rose.

The third child in my dormitory is a “heavyweight” figure with a weight of more than 230 pounds. Let alone in our class, it is also a unique figure in the whole school. The third child is a typical “relaxed and fat”, often happy, and his roommates love to joke with him. Lu Junqing always said, “Lao San, why is your belly button gone? If you don’t believe it, touch it.” At this time, we would laugh, because the third could not touch our belly button at all.

Although Lao San is very fat, sinus has been opened. In class, the third child always likes to sit in the back row of a Jing, and does not dare to talk to a Jing, just secretly watching a Jing beautiful back. Lu Junqing would often remind him not to be distracted, pay attention to listening, and ask him what he looked? Lao San always said he didn’t see anything and thought about things. In fact, at that time, Lu Junqing had already noticed that the old three were single-minded, but there was no evidence yet. The old three refused to say anything. Maybe it was afraid of our jokes.

Lao San’s eloquence is also good at ordinary times. He is also very hot to talk to us in the dormitory. Sometimes we all think he is a “chatbot”. However, as long as he talked with Jing, he completely changed. Not only was he hesitating, but also the topic was particularly awkward, which made the other party feel incredible, using the current Internet hot words to describe it is “chat”. I remember once, Lu Junqing, and Lao San had dinner in the canteen. Lao San was facing the door and was chatting with us at the mountain. Lu Junqing was scared to only use muffle with hands ramen bowl, because Lao San was talking hard, just spittle stars flying around, flying out a few rice grains from time to time. Lu Junqing kept reminding him that he should slow down talking with others, and it was neither civilized nor polite to spittle stars. Especially the beautiful female classmates were very disgusted with such people.

As soon as Lu Junqing finished his lecture to Lao San, a Jing came in with a lunch box. There are too many people eating at noon, and the dining tables in the canteen are full. A Jing was looking for a place when he bought the meal. Lu Junqing raised his voice and waved, “a Jing, there is a place here”. A Jing is a cheerful and dignified girl. The dining tables in the canteen are all four-seat, and there is still a vacant place next to the old Three. A Jing is next to the old three. A Jing said, “Thank you. It’s too difficult to find a place to eat”. Lu Junqing and I were both calm in our hearts. Seeing a Jing greet him naturally, the third man sat there with a blushed face and dared not look up.

A Jing said, “Lao San, what’s wrong? Seeing me so shy?”

Lao San said, “No, you also eat?”

A Jing said, “Yes, isn’t noon just dinner time?”

Lao San said, “Ah, is it delicious?”

Lu Junqing and I both laughed. After all, a Jing was a girl and did not laugh out loud.

A Jing said, “Lao San, it depends on how fat you are. You only need to eat. If you can lose weight, find a girlfriend to cover me.”

At that time, a Jing was the speaker, but the third listener was intentional. From that day on, I began to give the three-year morning running weight loss plan. “There is no difficult thing in the world, I am afraid of people who want to do it”, as long as it is determined to do it, there is nothing that cannot be done. The third man was so eager to lose weight, so he was in the wind and rain, and the distance of morning running was increasing. After two semesters of morning running, the weight of the third child dropped to more than 170kg, and all of them were muscles, which made her look burly and powerful. She couldn’t see that she was fat at all. She was the “fierce man” type that girls liked.

On Valentine’s Day, I, Lao San, Lu Junqing and other roommates sold roses in the west gate of the school. That was born well, and there were many students who bought flowers. Lu Junqing saw a Jing Shopping with another female classmate, Lu Junqing quickly called Lao San, which meant to let Lao San send a rose to Ah Jing, but Lao San shook his head straight, although Lao San is very powerful now, however, the character has not changed at all. In the face of my favorite Jing, there will be a shy and timid side.

Lu Junqing called a Jing, picked a rose and gave it to a Jing. He smiled and said to a Jing, “this most beautiful rose is for you. Don’t get me wrong. This is not for me, but our third child gave it to you. He wanted to give it to you personally, but when he saw you, his heart beat faster, his palms were sweating and he was nervous and speechless.”

Lu Junqing went on to say, “our third child used to be more than 230 Jin, but now it is less than 180 JIN. Running every morning, rain or shine, this is the love power you gave him.”

A JING smiled and said, “he sat behind me every time he went to class. He had already felt that he liked me. It turned out that I thought the old Three was quite good. Unfortunately, he was too fat. Without him losing weight for me, I was really moved by his sincerity.”

A Jing walked up to Lao San and said, “Lao San, can you give me a rose yourself?”

Lao San blushed and said, “I have given you all the roses.”

A JING smiled at the look of the old Three, which was more beautiful than the pile of roses. The old three had a good fortune.

Love is really strange, fate has come, can’t stop. I was born with low emotional intelligence. Lu Junqing had no fate. In this way, two people became “love” volunteers, matching the beautiful love between Lao San and Jing.

The Chinese Valentine’s Day is coming. Wish you a good luck.

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Sitting in front of the table, my thoughts flew into the fog of the next day, locked between the sizes. A figure of eggs in space struggled in it, looking for the Sun of heaven and earth, thinking of you deeply printed in the sea, the casual touch of the fingertip turns the shadow into nothingness. How can the years of waiting turn into a bubble? Tears flow slowly and invade the whole body.

In the morning of early autumn, the light breeze rises and leaves fall yellow. The sharp blade of the wind blows the trees dry for a little bit of anger. The figure of life under the trees looks so lonely, relying on the trees, the busy city is located in front of us. An independent sphere is busy but not stopped. Time is easy to pass. It seems that it has been several years. A young man in full bloom has become a white-haired old man with a bent back, holding crutches, all alone. Years of hard work seem to stop there.

Walking gently in the street, stepping lightly without a trace of sound, looking for you in the past, looking for the memories of the past, drinking and pecking cups, mellow and elegant breath poured into tidal surge of emotion, the breath was coarse, you are looking hard but you are close to your eyes. The end of the tail is like the exhaustion that has been washed away for many days. Your company is the warm sun penetrating the red dust. Looking back, we once watched the flowers bloom and fall together, enjoy the sunset together, listen to the loquacious glide,……, Taste the ups and downs of life. The dream is waking up. No matter how I look for the place where you hide, I still get nothing. The nose is getting sour and the eyes are moist. An ominous feeling covers my heart. You are far away from me. The wind is rusty and the water is cold, but you don’t look back.

Time is like a flying butterfly, passing through my youth, and there is a ripple silently, wandering alone in the deserted alley, tasting the sadness you gave, walking alone through the dark and deep path of life.

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Bugu

Cuckoo cried a few times, but it was still the familiar, round and kind voice.

I didn’t see it. The sound came from the woods under the slope. The clear sound was round, but it seemed to be lonely and there was no response from my companions.

It was all kinds of other birds that answered it, but it was just a noisy voice. Pheasant suddenly flew up and rattled, the bird broke in garden balsam, and a bird I am familiar with but unknown, the sound is dry and boring.

The woods are already dense, just a mountain ditch is blankly crowded green. I don’t know what is in the woods. I can’t see it. But I believe that there are all kinds of things there, but suddenly they seem so far away, just like the strange and familiar world and the strange and familiar crowd in front of me.

The sky is cloudy, but it is inexplicably bright everywhere. It seems that the sunshine has squeezed through the clouds inexorably. Tomorrow will be full. Maybe the sunshine in summer is not allowed to be dark. The TTL in the distance still stood there quietly without saying a word. It seemed that it had not changed in spring, summer, autumn and winter. It must not see me, it is history, and I, an ant, is not counted.

The wind is very strong, but without dust or chill, it looks boring. It seems to want to drive me away and drive me away from this world, disappear to a place where I can’t see myself, turn into dust and blend into the clouds.

A magpie, black and white, clean, flew from the woods and landed on the branch of a locust tree. The wind blew its feathers into a whirlpool. It tried hard to fly again, trying to fall on the treetops of another tree, but it didn’t succeed. The Treetop has been blown into a whirlpool by the wind. It can’t find a place to stay. The vortex is like tens of millions of pushing hands and tens of millions of soft but Cruel whips, reject its foothold. Therefore, it had to sink into the green ocean helplessly and disappeared.

It does not call. It’s like me who sank in this sea and bowed my head all day long.

The wind is very strong. When I burn paper money for you, the wind forced me not to let me give it to you one by one. For my obstinacy, it severely burned my hand. Therefore, I had to press it with a lump of earth and burn it once. Under the mound, layers of paper money ashes were still shrinking in the wind.

I sat next to you, smoking a cigarette and whispering to you. The epidemic has been basically controlled. The children have gone to school. The baby is more sensible and taller. Last year’s clothes are smaller this year. The wind is very strong. I don’t know if you can hear it clearly. You must know when you look at us in the sky. I just came to talk to you. After that, my heart will be quiet for a few days. At that time, you did all these things, and you must not rest assured.

The wheat is already apricot. A month ago, they were hidden in the bushes and I couldn’t see them. The time passed so fast that the string of white acacia flowers had no trace, while the black brown color pods hanging on the tree were still last year’s. All of a sudden, these small elms in front of your grave are so tall. Two years ago, I didn’t see them at all.

In the evening, my baby suddenly wanted to sing cuckoo to me for no reason. I listened to his singing and couldn’t help crying.

Cuckoo is screaming,

Singing moving songs,

Singing to the sad person,

Forget everything……

Just, how can I forget it?

May 19, 2020

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…