Spring is gone

The fourth spring after you left.

I am at home alone.

Turning off the light, darkness and loneliness rushed over and swallowed me instantly. Tears slipped down my face quickly. The house was very quiet. I seemed to hear the sound of tears falling down.

I sat on the small bench in the kitchen, with only dark red cigarette butts and bright windows outside the window.

A fine example sharp noise came from the yard. The little baby went to the third sister’s house. The third sister missed him and wanted to stay with him all night.

I know the woods in the yard, the flowers that should bloom and fall are all falling. When I came home, I had already seen that spring had been deeply submerged by the years.

And those flowers, those tender leaf, those spring, I only cast a shallow glance. They may have seen me and walked by silently and lifelessly every day. Sometimes the baby is around, one high and one low. Baby is happy sometimes. I also smile and joke. However, they must have noticed that when my baby didn’t look at me, I was tired and sad.

I just passed by spring, a shadow of passing years, often wearing a messy gray hair.

Sometimes, baby holds a small flower, a few leaves and a few grass in his hand. He often runs over in a hurry and comes up to him to smell those flowers. He loves beauty, he is naive. Originally, he should also be happy and happy.

However, those flowers, those grass and leaves had already withered and I threw them into the trash can. Last weekend, the small apricots he picked must have withered without any brilliance.

The bowl I had eaten a few days ago was placed on the stove in a mess, looking at me silently with my head bowed and tears. Since you left, they have lost their luster like me, I lost my soul.

I know those winter jasmine, those Magnolia, those apricot flowers, those peach blossoms, those Li Hua flowers and large rape flowers in the fields. I used to like them so much, just like you like them, however, now, I only see a piece of the Rose, a flower tree, but I can no longer see their charm, their delicacy and delicacy, I can’t smell their fragrance either. The faint fragrance of flowers is refreshing and sweet in memory.

This spring, I only remember that it was hot and cold. Three months ago, there used to be a few days warmer than now. Remember some rain, untimely, completely the taste of autumn. I remember some cold, accompanied by layers of thick clouds, and there were chilling spring snow on the top of the far TTL. I remember drinking with my closest friends twice, drinking unconscious, being helped by my friends, and crying in the street. I remember some wine bars. I ate dishes silently and drank wine, which was a lonely visitor and lonely soul in the bustling world.

Of course, I can’t forget to take my baby to the mountain fields in spring. Sometimes my baby is gambol, sometimes it is sensible and strong that does not match his age.

Between Heaven and Earth, two figures, one high and one low, made me summon up courage, remind me and tell me that spring is beautiful and promising.

He is not at home tonight. I turned on the lamp, and the shadow fell on the wall, mottled, without human form.

It is said that when you are alone, Shadow is a person’s soul.

2021-4-16

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p /p maybe one day don’t send friends again; Maybe one day don’t brush space; Maybe one day don’t write thoughts; Maybe one day, all the time is frozen at that moment; Maybe, I have never said that I still miss you before that day comes. Maybe, until that day, my heart will never get what I want. Maybe……! You will know that I have been out of time and become obsession. Looking for you in the corner of the city, just to surround you and feel your most beautiful face and warm fingertips, the most fragrant long hair shawl, sleepless, lingering, just for you to look at me before I disappear, looking for the moment I disappear in your eyes, flashing the brightest point, that was before I left, all the memories drew the most beautiful circle for you, just for you! In the next life, you must not return to the previous life. If you return to the world too early, you will rub shoulders with you again. With the obsession of the tenth generation, you will sleep with your husband and wife for the rest of your life! How far is it from the tenth world in this life? Have you ever remembered that I missed you in every world and looked back at you and stopped to remember!

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I took the beginning of the East back to the east dry feet.

After getting out of the car at the fork in the road, I walked down the ditch and washed my feet in the ditch.

The water in the ditch is clear and flowing like light on the rusty water plants.

Behind — Tan Ling on the other side of the road, it looks like a raw wheat steamed bread sprinkled with chocolate in the sunshine. Tanling has always been like this. When I saw it, it was bare. How many years have passed-I really calculated the annual ring. After more than 20 years, it still hasn’t changed much. As a lonely mountain bag, or always unchanged, it conforms to our memory.

I picked up the knife on the ground-a bright chopper.

I am about to forget the knife, why do I bring a knife? I haven’t been back to Donggan’s feet for a long time, because time is wasted and I may need a knife.

The Duan family has been deserted, and the ruins of the empty flat are like the ruins.

Duan Jialing is like a tombstone of time, which stands between north and south. The sunshine is very transparent, and there is no dust and haze on Duan Jialing. It is clean, like clay just out of the kiln. The sky is also very clean, like a frozen lake. The way home is also very clean, like a yellow silk belt taken off the waist. The field looks like after autumn harvest. It is empty and there is no scene. It must be said that the Earth is covered with a khaki sweat.

The sky is very clean.

The ground under your feet is quiet.

I can see Donggan’s feet. White buildings with two floors are everywhere.

Ditch-this is a ditch that flows continuously all the year round. The water comes from the water. On the slope of the ditch over there, there is a row of tombstones standing impressively, large, such as door panels, on it, familiar words and strange names are written in Zhu Hong; The small ones are as small as sofa back, and on it, familiar words and strange names are written in Zhu Hong. The tablets are all hemp stones, and the hemp spots on them are clear and recognizable.

A total of five brand-new tombstones.

I turned to look at the beginning of the East and saw fields like tombstones in the sky. Scared me, I quickly pressed the head of the early East to my arms and said: Don’t Look, I am here.

At the beginning of the East, I snuggled my head in my arms, and I almost dragged him to walk.

Under the Duan ridge, it was dark. It was the tombstone of the pine forest and Duan Ridge.

I entered the village along the direction of the ditch, but I didn’t meet anyone.

The white iron door of the first household is as bright as a mirror.

The iron door of the second household was painted with green paint, rusted, mottled like a singing face.

His family has a dog. At this time, the dog should rush out, not welcome, but also bark to call the police. The dog hole by the door is open, like a decoration. On the opposite side is a wall. The house in the garden is original. The windows on the rough red brick wall are not equipped with glass and a piece of plastic film is hung. The plastic film should be noisy, and there was no movement at this time, which was as firm as sticking to the wall. The two houses next to them-I know their builders have been dead for many years, and his son also went to Changsha-went into the city, but the weeds in the yard were as long and neat as someone took care of them, without the mess of rats, pheasants and cockatrice. The sun shines on them, covering them with a layer of color clothes. The smell of desolation climbed out of the grass and hung on the wall.

When I walked all the way through those houses, I looked at them and they were all closed or locked.

These buildings are all new buildings. At the beginning, there was a wind of building new buildings in the countryside. No matter how many people in the family, a fine steel villa was built. I am not disgusted with these houses, just as I like the old tile houses. Houses are just the sky of our hearts, what kind of sky and what kind of identity we are given. We have a new identity, we immediately gave up and went to town. Run too fast, no, it should be said that the temptation of life in the city is too big, or there are too few people staying in the village, can’t bear the popularity of rarity and loneliness, and also throw furniture into the city, and this village-became the tombstone of our life.

At the beginning of the East, I heard that I always said tombstone, with my eyes wide open.

He was not frightened at all, but curious about me, as if I became a stranger.

Stepping on the scene of my childhood life, I walked in along the alley. On the way, I heard my footsteps and closed my eyes. I couldn’t believe it at all. It was my footsteps. Click-click-click–

The House on the other side of the alley-several tile houses, has been abandoned for a long time. The white ash on the wall is peeling off, the wood of the window is getting older and older, the door is getting thinner and thinner, and the tile is getting darker and darker. The bamboo forest behind the house is becoming more and more lush. The crack of bamboo forest—–is becoming more and more obvious.

I really don’t know exactly when the bamboo forest was available.

Donggan foot was originally without bamboo.

People with dry feet like to plant cypress trees by the river in front of the door. The seedlings of willow trees and maple trees grow in the ground, and they are reluctant to pull them out. Walking out of the door, I saw a row of green trees. The trees were as firm as our life. After decades, we left and left the village. Those trees were still standing by the river, becoming more and more firm. There are orange trees, batch trees and peach trees behind the house. There is another pear tree tree behind the uncle’s house. On the side of the village, there are plum trees and persimmon tree trees. In those open spaces, chestnut trees and jujube tree trees are planted. When did bamboo move into Donggan foot? Looking over, the open space behind Donggan’s feet was full of bamboo tails, green, and they looked at Donggan’s feet as if they were breathing on the screen.

The bamboo with dry feet is probably picked from the outside.

The tile houses on the east dry feet collapsed in front of them.

Maintaining our home has now become a pool of mud.

The past life was put in our heads and we warmed it with painstaking efforts. When we touched the broken wall beside the door, it suddenly became pale and meaningless. Two hundred years of history, we closed it gently, like rotten shoes. Our life has changed and become insignificant. We still hold it tightly. It is the life-saving straw given by the Times. Is the city the other side of the pursuit? Did we go ashore when we entered the city? Thinking of Donggan feet in Changsha, Yongzhou, Guangzhou, Shenzhen, Dongguan and Zhongshan, Donggan feet are always theirs, but they do not always belong to Donggan feet. In their well-known struggle for their hometown, dongganfoot really became a steppingstone of their life.

Dongganfoot’s house stands quietly in the sunshine.

I smelled the smell of the cemetery. I picked up the knife, and I saw my poor crazy appearance.

Opening the door, the house was filled with the musty smell of dust.

The portrait of my father was in the middle hall. He looked at me with a thoughtful expression, and his eyes were full of endless starlight.

I knelt down and crawled on the ground like a child who did something wrong.

At the beginning of the East, he stood by the door, looking at the Donggan foot that did not belong to him.

I don’t know where he belongs.

I belong here.

There was no joy in my heart, and my Hanging Heart was swinging. In this place like the sea, it was as weak as lead.

Donggan foot has no tombstone.

I tried my best to comfort myself that those intact roads would always bring people back.

That’s the only way home……

2020/6/9

Zan (prose editor: Yue ran) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…