Son, you should be happier

Son, you should be happier.

You wear trencher cap, it looks very serious, without even a smile, I don’t like it.

You graduated from college this year. What a good time in life. How proud we are that you have delivered zhibosheng!

There is an epidemic this year. I have no chance to accompany you when you graduate from college. On the playground where you sweat drip, at the gate of the library where you study quietly, on the way to the school with tall sycamore trees on both sides you walked gently, I want to share your joy of success. I want to accompany you through the end of your undergraduate course, experience your tenacity and diligence.

However, you didn’t let me go. I read your WeChat from time to time in those days and wanted to see the photos you sent, your feelings and the appearance of your good friends. However, you didn’t send them. On the phone, you are still talking about all kinds of things you are busy with, sober and steady.

I’ll pick you up in my car. It’s still the old dormitory. The dormitory is full of the mess that you have to go to each other. You have already packed your luggage. You have already made a plan for what you take and how much you take every time, you won’t let me take more with a stiff tone. Just a few trips, we took all the things, and the trunk and back seat of the car were full. The back of your coat is wet.

I should have a smile on my face that day, although I was very tired, especially in my heart. I know I should be happy, but looking at this familiar place and the place where our family walked happily, my heart was cold. The three-and-four-storey building beside the road has platforms on each floor. On that day, my little baby and I climbed up to play. You and your mother were talking below, and you had endless words.

There is also the north gate of the school. When you signed up, our whole family went together and took the only family photos left now. Four years ago, you were green, but you could see the joy and pride on your face.

But today, I am the only one to pick you up. Baby hasn’t had a holiday yet.

I don’t know how you spent these two years in school. I am weak and incompetent. After your mother left suddenly, I was caught in pain and despair, and I had to take care of my little baby. Therefore, I don’t often come to see you or care about you. I don’t know how you survived and how you survived those painful tortures. Among your classmates, where did you get the corner where you only hid yourself? How do you set your mind to improve your performance step by step.

Son, thank you! You have made our promise when your mother was in front of each other and cried bitterly: the hope and future of our family are on you! You will work hard!

I am proud of you! When the neighbors ask you, they will say that you are competitive, smart, sensible and excellent. In their words, I hear sympathy and envy,, they don’t know, what I am proud of for you is your strength!

According to the original plan, you will be at home this summer vacation. I know that this is your rare long vacation. You will fly higher and farther and become our pride. I won’t stop you, I won’t drag you down. As long as you can take good care of yourself and be a dignified person, this is our previous expectation. Now, the expectation has not changed. I can take good care of myself.

However, you are going to school soon. I support you and don’t want you to waste your time. I’ll take you to the new campus. This is a brand new and big school. You are busy dealing with all kinds of things before and after. I can only sit on the block of stone used as a seat next to the guard smoking cigarettes and watching you, look at the back of your coat being half wet.

You unloaded the last luggage from the car, let me go, and said firmly, “I see you go, I’ll go in again!”

I left and swallowed a sentence to my mouth: “I want to see you go in and slowly disappear in the campus.”

You are still serious and decisive. You can do your own thing well, I believe!

But Son, you should be happier!

Because I like to see you happy!

Because your mother also likes to see you happy!

July 22, 2020

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…

Hui Hui, the host of the radio evening program, received this online message again.

“Please broadcast All kinds of everything sung by Dana.”

This is the third time Huihui has received this message.

What is confused is that this old English song does not match the style of the program that focuses on local pop songs,

Hard to do.

Besides, no matter what song is now, every version is optional once you surf the Internet, so you don’t have to leave messages again and again.

* * * * * * * *

This day is the farewell banquet of the supervisor brother Hui and another Gao.

“Introduction, this is my new supervisor, Liao Mingqian.”

Huihui saw one wearing glasses,

It is very scholar-type and silent, unlike the new colleagues who work in the radio station.

“Yu Qian is my younger brother who studied biography in university. Unfortunately…..”

Brother Hui couldn’t stop talking after two glasses of red wine.

“You are going to tell my story again.”

Yu Qian’s gentle socket does not want to talk about personal affairs in front of strangers.

“You just took up a new job today. You shouldn’t have mentioned these in the past.”

Brother Hui stopped awkwardly.

* * * * * * * *

After receiving this song message for the fifth time, Huihui finally made an exception to broadcast this song in the program.

Soon after the song started, Yu Qian rushed into the live studio.

“Why do you play this song?”

He looked dignified.

“Sorry, I know this song does not match the style of the program.”

Huihui felt embarrassed.

No, I want to know why you play this song?”

When meeting Huihui with a little persistence, it is hard to say anything;

“I will explain that you will not believe… I asked brother Hui to tell you.”

* * * * * * * *

“My girlfriend is also my classmate. Before she died of illness, she said that she would use this song to tell him that she was very good and let Lin Qian not remember her……

We all thought it would be a dream, but we didn’t expect it to appear like this.”

Brother Hui was also surprised by this.

“My girlfriend and I used to like climbing mountains together. She always listens to this song… I am very careless and have never asked why.”

Yu Qian bowed his head and smiled bitterly.

* * * * * * * *

The next day the song was broadcast.

After leaving a message, I added a message.

Thank you… this song is a song my mother liked very much before her death;

She said she could add joy to the bitter days… when playing this song,

I will feel that people who love me are all around me… it is a moment when life can no longer be happy.”

“Is there anything else I can do for you?”

Huihui couldn’t help asking.

“Continue the happiness of Yu Qian for me.”

The message has been interrupted since then.

“I will.” Huihui repeated this promise in his heart again and again.

Huihui’s first time to meet Huiqian, it has never been exciting…..

Is this kind of message available only when you predict the meeting with Huiqian?

Or: will the message be a scene when Qian becomes Hui Hui’s life?

This will be a mystery forever……

All kinds of everything

Reminds me of you.

Message Sun Enli. petit story C117

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory of our first love time, burning our hot love in June; Entering this, like a distance and poetry, makes us passionate, like summer flowers and colorful clouds, we tidal surge of emotion beautiful days with ups and downs.

In one’s life, there will be dozens of spring, summer, autumn and winter, and dozens of June. I was born in June, so I will naturally pay more attention to June and have a special feeling. However, what really made me have a unique time for June. What impressed me deeply was my gorgeous love like summer flowers and as beautiful as colorful clouds.

I still remember that it was a June full of warmth and romance. On that beautiful summer day, we met. The sunshine on that day was particularly bright, and the sky was also particularly blue. White clouds flew freely under the blue sky, just like white sheep running on the vast grassland. When I was walking leisurely on a tree-lined road, a girl wearing a white dress and holding a red sunshade came to me. I saw her chestnut hair flowing in the summer breeze, with a pair of big watery eyes inlaid under her curved eyebrows, shining and as if beautiful pain were written…… It was so beautiful that I suddenly felt as if I met Dai Wangshu’s “a girl with sorrow like a lilac……”

The accidental meeting made me feel heartbroken, and the love at first sight later made me even more overjoyed, making me like a treasure to her and inseparable.

In the later relationship, I learned that her family had suffered setbacks and frustrations. The difficulties and hardships of life made her very strong and intelligent, and also gave her a pair of beautiful big eyes that seemed to speak. This pair of eyes is like a clear lake, always so bright and deep, always so sentimental, can be like stars. Through these eyes, you seem to be able to see her kind and beautiful heart. Especially when she feels sad and tears in her eyes, those eyes will instantly make her extremely beautiful, as beautiful as pear blossom bathed in the rain, so that she can melt your heart immediately. At this time, with her, there will be a feeling of seducing people’s hearts, which will make you can’t help thinking that the one in Dai Wangshu’s “Rain Lane” has the same color as “Lilac, lilac-like fragrance, lilac-like sorrow,” the girl.

Being with her can always make me feel her need for me, her dependence on me, her tenderness for me and her love for me. It also makes me really feel how much I need to care for her, how much I need to care for her, how much I need to give my heart and true feelings to love her…… She can make me feel that I am the prince charming in her mind.

With her, you can feel that there seems to be an invisible magic in her body, which will always attract you invisibly and strongly. This kind of magic will make you unwilling to leave her for a moment, make your heart seem to beat for her from now on, and make you willing to love her for a lifetime, let you fall under her pomegranate dress willingly, and it also makes you seem to understand what is called “soul unguarding” and what is “all over the country”……

I remember that the famous modern poet of Taiwan, Rove, once had a sad and beautiful sigh in his poem “beyond the smoke” that “June was a very sentimental book with such a sad and beautiful ending-the sunset is sinking Westward. However, June in my heart seems to be like a clear stream in the valley forever, singing songs flowing slowly towards me; It is always like a little star in the summer night sky, shining bright and charming light to me!……

Since I had this relationship from June, I started a new life. Because of this love, my life becomes colorful, my life becomes infinite, my days become full of happiness, sweet and happy. When every night falls, my heart will be filled with warmth and tenderness, and when every dawn comes, my heart will always raise new hopes and hopes one after another.

Since I had this relationship from June, in my heart, the sky in June is always so deep and blue, and the clouds in June are always so white and beautiful, the sunshine in June is always so bright and brilliant, the flowers in June are always so gorgeous and fragrant, the lake in June is always so clear and transparent, and the evening wind in June is always so cool and intoxicating.

Whenever June comes, my heart will be full of joy and joy, full of longing and expectation, full of love and tenderness. June will never be the “very sentimental book” written by love in my heart, but the memoirs of our beautiful love and happy time!

If the love in the world is the blooming flowers, may our love always be the most gorgeous and fragrant one in Bloom; If the love in the world is the beautiful mountains covered with snow, may our love always be the highest big and white snow peak.

When we walked into the threshold of another June hand in hand, into the beautiful day when we fell in love with each other, those moments that made people move together were like fragments of memories, instantly spliced into a beautiful picture scroll to show in front of my eyes; Those happy times that I have passed together are also like the sparkling light of a lake rippling in my heart…… June, June in my heart!……

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

In fact, I started to capture you with the eyes of others who said they would hook people on the conference floor where the first freshmen registered and gathered. Until your face is slowly burning, turn your head and suddenly touch my eyes. So, when we collide burst out. Why do your eyes shine brightly but look left and right to avoid me? How can I not know the teasing of your eyes when looking at something? How could I not know how to pass me by the slight trembling and inexplicable impulse in your heart? How could I not know that you casually turned your head and scanned the class, actually looking for my true feelings surging in the last row of sleep? Don’t you know that I once wanted to write a great book about the delicate relationship between psychology and science, society and love? What can you hide from me! In fact, I know everything; Even when I invited you to see an opera with no name for the first time, my palms were sweating even when I forced your hand for the first time, even if you went to your house for the first time, your mother took a broom and rushed to the street entrance. You smiled and bent your waist upstairs. But I know that you are destined to be mine in this life, and you can’t get rid of it. Stalking is the most true noun of incontrovertible from ages to ages; In this era, the result of it is-I am in love. Love is always beautiful. I will always praise the beauty and touching of love. I don’t know how weak and unreasonable those who hate and curse love are. Even if we break up in the future, meet by chance years later, if I haven’t turned my sadness into indifference, I will invite you to walk on the cold streets for a while…… …… When I was talking to you about this, you were sleeping soundly-I thought that the tone of words was just a random expression of my chaotic mood at some moment, but who knows that you actually got better later. It’s not that I don’t know you, I just have some negligence. After all, pretending to sleep and psychological research are two different things, and your eyes are closed and pretend to be so similar; And you have already been used to the heat generated by my eyes. My friends and I live happily. As soon as the sun rises, we are full of ambition. From political and legal assets, economic management, financial and trade, single-stock futures to fashion, psychological academic, political party program, official corruption records, we can see everything; houhei is a must-read lesson after class. We have the passion of fire and flame. We have the ambition of wolves and pirates. We have already started the psychological advance training course. We are not afraid of any difficulties and setbacks. The long years are enough for us to fail and splurge. We are full of hope and infinite confidence in the future-and your arrival is the mark of the end of another chapter in my life. It’s just…… It’s just you. Why did you take me to see the sea. I’m not ready yet. I haven’t been able to use my own jet speedboat to take you on the sea and fly freely, or it is no exaggeration to lie with you on a private luxury yacht with flying bridge porthole Champagne wine rippling with the sea, the troubles and displeasure of filtering and picking up reality again-and now I am just a person who often saves breakfast for dinner. But you are not in a hurry, pull it up and I will leave. I have forgotten where to go to the sea. I only remember that when I arrived at the seaside, my eyes were a piece of blue Wang, and there was nothing else. And include the primary colors of life in the next few days. This is not over yet. In the blue, the dizziness has not faded. You smile and say, go again. So we went further into the sea. When the old cow drove like a bunch of small middle bus with a broken iron can to reach the destination, I was already torn apart by turbulence. But this time I can still see the object clearly, seeing you leaving me everywhere regardless of my life and death. My heart began a painful process, and I vaguely felt that this pain would last my whole life. Love originally had such hardships, which I didn’t expect when I deliberately chose to spend my head white in the snow and rain when you appeared, this is also what I didn’t expect when the chapter of life ended after I got you-seriously, I really don’t understand what else you can think about when you are standing at the seaside like that. But anyway, I want to make it clear to you. I know that people like you who love music art like some of nature’s blue induction or guidance, but I am deeply addicted to the world of dust and China, and I stay in the natural style and light, people who have committed severe ocean allergy. You have to understand my feelings. You will only increase my misery index and gratuitous disgust of existence by imposing me on your personal thinking. For me, walking by the sea without a trace or even a beautiful woman is not only a wonderful thing, but also a waste of the hardships and painstaking efforts of human beings to build a beautiful world for tens of millions of years. I really don’t understand why you still pursue the fun of this monochrome life in this era full of all kinds of brilliance and ten colors! Look at me and say, go to the sea in Chiwan tomorrow, where the sea is very beautiful. I answered without thinking: OK! My companion and I lived in a school hostel outside school, which was a three-story tall modern Western antique building built on a hillside left by foreigners. The facade of the building is three-section, and the base layer at the bottom is made of flat and smooth marble, with wide and thick dark red bricks stacked on it. The main building in the middle is picked out the eaves with Doric pillars, which are majestic and atmospheric. The walls, doors and windows of the whole building are Western-style, while the roof is a Chinese ancient single-eaves temple style; The carved cornices of the beast head are curled to four sides, and the ridge of the roof is arched like a cat’s back, standing on it, you can see the surging river running in the distance. However, most of the buildings are idle. Only the East Side building is used as a guest house, and there are several other school-running departments sporadically. We live in the attic at the highest level of the hostel. I often climbed up the roof and looked down at the small pond with several bright red lotus flowers floating in the center of the square below, and the shrub clusters and thick lush shade on the huge courtyard surrounded by the blue stone fence, and your shallow chiffon skirt shaking in the shadow of the tree, then your heart begins to tighten. You said I lived in such an elegant environment and could not understand the music you played. However, I was thinking that the birthdays of all my friends had already passed twice. My distant aunt had been to the hospital three times this month. What else could I prove that I was not in the dormitory. I just forgot to let them only tell you when I left. I just want to stay away from the school management-without those dense tree barriers, we can see the charm of mature young female teachers who come here to study and live here without any obstacles. You like playing the piano, and you have enrolled in a high-grade piano tutorial class after learning the course. For me, the so-called difference between low-level and high-level is the difference between being confused and confused-I have to tell you, except for the extreme dislike of natural and cultural scenery, I am even more ignorant of elegant music. I also have my own favorite music, but it is crazy to twist my body, unrestrained body, and can shake my heart and every pore without thinking ~ HI ~ Le. Your piano often makes me feel like I’m back to the swaddling era when you stretched out your little hand and babbled-no one would blame you for how you slept in that era…… So, the first time I listened to you play a tune at your house, the tune was so sad that you were in tears when it was finished. Turn around and see, but I fell asleep towards you with saliva dripping against piano cover. You cried harder. Afterwards, for a whole week, I was making an apology, writing a complaint, making a promise declaration, and vowed that I would never feel sleepy in the daytime, especially in front of you from now on, even if I just opened my mouth and yawned; otherwise, I will become a little blue turtle and let you tread for a lifetime. You should be soft-hearted. After you cry with tears and cry about the sad feeling of playing the piano to the Ox, the world love of playing the piano with Zhong Zi-Qi fold, and even the misdemeanor of the wind horse and ox who are involved in the loyalty of love, the next day, you were in front of me again. In fact, I am not too untouched about art, especially literature. Sometimes I also have one or two sentences, such as “The moon is not very round tonight, let’s draw a circle together” with the sudden inspiration of seven words of rhyme. As for the combination of literature and music, I also had the idea of writing long poems and wrote the beginning of it. Although there is only one sentence, it often makes me daydream that on the silent and vast Mongolian grassland, the bright moon is hanging high in the sky, and the moving violin is pulled up far away. Then: “Your sad singing, why…… Why…… (– Will let me hear!!!)” In fact, I also want to tell you that I have a good foundation and talent for literature. When I was a child, my teacher often praised me for my peculiar composition conception, good writing style and the style of a master. I’m just afraid that you don’t believe it, others don’t believe it, and I don’t believe it myself. Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…

Dragon Boat Festival cold

Suddenly I felt a cold feeling, from arm to back to every cell in the whole body.

The living room is dark, although it is not dark yet, all kinds of furniture have dark shadows.

I sat on the sofa, baby lying on the sofa, we didn’t talk.

It was still raining outside the window, not big, but full of gloomy coldness.

Today is the Dragon Boat Festival. It shouldn’t be so cold.

It was very hot a few days ago. After all, summer is the time to get hot. However, today, the Dragon Boat Festival seems that heaven and we suddenly fell into the cold and gloomy valley.

My son went to school. I gently advised him not to come home, but he came back. As soon as the festival comes, he will come back. I know why.

He is still on his way to school now. He should be on the subway. If he didn’t go home, he was afraid that I would be lonely in the festival and come back. I knew he must be lonely and tired in the car.

I didn’t say it, neither did he, but we all know it.

I just made a bowl of noodles for him to eat. I can’t cook delicious food, and he didn’t feel much about the warmth of home. Our men just said something. He had a quiet sleep at home. He was very busy and tired.

He showed his dissatisfaction with his brother’s study and habits. He was excellent, but his baby couldn’t catch up with him. I know that without you, I didn’t inject strong character and good habits into my baby. I was afraid that he lost his mother’s love and had a problem with his character. I doted on him a little, and I was reluctant to discipline him severely.

Zongzi and big apricot are piled up in the refrigerator. I don’t like eating it, and I am not in the mood to eat it. So are the children.

Why are there so many festivals? This is the burden we can’t avoid. Just because there is no laughter and warmth without you, even if it should be such a hot day, the Dragon Boat Festival.

Tears whirled in his eyes, suddenly flowing down, cool, salty.

I didn’t speak, neither did my baby. I felt him looking at me, in the shadow of the dim sofa. I don’t know what he feels and thinks about so young.

Maybe he knew that in this festival, you also came home. There was your breath in the air. He lay quietly in his mother’s arms, just like before.

I stood up and walked a few steps with numb legs.

“Baby, It’s a little cold. Let’s have a rest. Dad will read to you”.

OK “! Baby promised and stood up.

The tap of slippers echoed in the living room.

I turned on the light.

The window is still pale gray and cold.

June 14, 2021

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…

Song wine

When is spring flower and Autumn Moon

How much do you know about the past

…………

A King

A song

Maybe Yu Jun

Intoxicated in music

It is also a kind

Feel comfortable

One me

A glass of spirits

I don’t know myself

How many times

I can’t tell myself clearly

Is enjoying

Still in

Drink together into the bitter sea of three people

Struggle

Still disappearing

Not Unknown

Wine into sorrow

Broken intestines

But a wisp of lovesickness

Who can solve it

Into lovesickness tears

Dark thinking

You must drink when playing songs at ordinary times.

But why can’t

Drinking on one side

One side and King

There are songs in the wine

There is wine in the song

Music is self

The last thing I want to say

I don’t know

It’s a sad music

Let me get closer to each other

Distance of mind

Still drunk

Unconsciously

A gentleman who has never met before

Drink sadness together

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Dear husband ‘:

I have to use this method to “communicate” my thoughts with you. In order to communicate with you effectively, I want to think about it. I think that in this period of marriage, it is most appropriate to write a letter to you. Express my true feelings and thoughts.

In the one and a half years of dating with you, it has been roughly so long. My heart is ups and downs, sad and happy. Take our recent events as an example. Two days ago, I said opposite to the conservatory that I wanted to see you. In fact, I just wanted to see you. I was tired all day, Lao Zhao. Look, talk, cheer you up. Looking at your lovely charmingly naive and indifferent language, let me listen to the songs on my mobile phone. Ha ha, I sincerely like your simplicity and innocence, but at the same time, in my heart, there has been a long-standing uneasiness: in such a material society, in the cruelty of the law of the jungle, such you can shield me from the wind and rain, give me a piece of sky I yearn?? Dear Lao Zhao, although you have always said yes, I have never believed it.. (Truth)

You love me, and I love you too. We don’t question each other. This is the greatest support I want to be with you all my life. However, our thoughts, personalities and living environment are so different since childhood. I like the simplicity and kindness of rural people, which are reflected in you, but rural people like to comment on right and wrong, male chauvinism and narrow-minded, the basic image of not paying attention to others’ feelings also shines on you. When I was forced to commit suicide by reality, you were still talking about guitar, listening to music, telling me our love and our future….. (I hope these don’t hurt your self-esteem. Although you are different in the summary table and say that you have no self-esteem, in fact, I know that your self-esteem is stronger than anyone else. No harm is because you don’t care, right? Ho ho)

After seeing your contradictory complex, I have already collapsed 100 times, even thousands of times. Sometimes on the surface, more often in my rough heart. No one saw it. Do you understand my feelings? Ha ha, let me tell you, let you know the woman around you now.

Because I grew up with my grandmother, I developed my kind, weak and even introverted character. Although few people think I am introverted on the surface, my heart is often lonely and independent. After going to college and swimming in the sea of books for 16 years, I became more confident and capable, knowing what kind of life I wanted and eager for pure communication in my heart. But I also deeply know how I should live in the real society and get the material enjoyment of love I want, especially in today’s state.

To be honest, it I am contradictory to make up your mind to get married. We are so identical and sometimes so different. Without you, I would strive for my career wholeheartedly and live the material life I want by myself at my most glorious age! Because, in this society, I think material is suitable for me, just as I need it!

However, I am not optimistic about struggling with you at all, even sometimes I am afraid and sad, because besides feelings, we are so different! Because fighting together means that we will be one, and I have long believed that none of us can change anyone. At least the relatives who have developed our habits are still alive. The changes now will bring about future confrontation and greater harm. The problem is that there are still some shortcomings that belong to us and have nothing to do with others, right? No matter whether this injury is for you or for me, and my tolerance is so poor, I am ashamed but helpless, my heart is so soft that I can’t stand a little needle injury… I really hope that I think too much. What I said is all my imagination, hehe.

As you said, economy, education, all these problems, except feelings or feelings, if there were no such things to be disturbed, then I wouldn’t think so much, we are the lovers of gods and immortals. You don’t know how much this attracts me. But now I know that this is my dream! Ho Ho.

So, don’t force me, don’t force yourself, let’s all live easier, okay? As for the result, I only feel that I am so tired now, and you don’t know me so well. In order to save your time and not let you bother, I told you in writing, because when facing you, I can’t think of these. Ha ha, I just want to love you well and feel that you are too tired to live. Because I understand it, I forget myself when I love you. So, you always say that I change back and forth, can’t see through my heart, ha ha, this time you probably know something

Your favorite: lzy

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Huihui saw the red briefcase in her husband Zhiwei’s New Year card.

“He still remembers that last week, when I mentioned that everyone was studying in Japan,

On January 1st, there will always be new year card for each other according to tradition.”

Huihui smiled; Couldn’t help peeking at the card that would be given to him first.

Then she saw another folded piece of paper beside her.

On paper; She saw Zhiwei’s secret blessing to Zhiwei for the new year.

Zhiwei:

“In a very difficult year, we passed again.

2020, what an easy-to-remember year it will be.”

Wish: I can say to the boss:

“Li Sir: I totally agree that Peter is smart and capable.

2020: I will also work hard, but let me do it in my own way.

Don’t mention Peter again, I already know. Let me do it… my way.”

Wish: I can say to my wife:

Huihui: May I never be a passionate, beautiful and determined little three.

I will always be good to you. I am just worried that I am vulnerable.”

Wish: I can say to my younger brother:

Brother: your father and I are invincible. Don’t mention those who and whose father,

You can’t re-select a father, just give in,

It’s a little worse to accept this package. The product is easy to use. Dad, forget it.”

Wish: I can say to everyone:

“Have you seen Zhiwei?

How good he is, how good he is, how good he is, how good he is… there is no need to compare goods with three rooms…..”

Zhiwei:

“Only You. I am high, I am low, you have always been optimistic about me.”

* * * * * * * *

Huihui orbital fever.

She wrote down the new year card that would give Zhiwei.

Zhiwei:

“The first time I had an impression on you was that when you were studying in Japan, you gave me a new year card on the morning of January 1st.

You wrote: I wish you good health and all the best in 2005.

I think: This man is really old-fashioned.

Fifteen years later, this first feeling was proved to be completely correct.

* * * * * * * *

I am not beautiful but attractive, not sexy but can cook, maybe I can’t score.

But I am grateful; I can meet you luckily.

I never thought of exchanging a better husband with heaven…..

You are a part of my life that I can’t ask for more.

Plus my whole heart, then give me 10 points!

My 10 points, plus the 10 points you added to my life, are exactly 20.

20 for two people, 2020.

Let’s walk into 2020 and come to endless together.

I will not pray for a better you, because you are already the best.

* * * * * * * *

Zhiwei, although old products and new packaging are popular now;

But I have used Zhiwei, who I met in 2005,

Let this Zhiwei continue to be Zhiwei…..

Wax and wane

To you: This heart is the best.

Love you…..

Past. In the future.

2020. January 1st.”

2020 Sun Enli. petit story C119. Photo. Osamu

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Si Xu

Miss you

No longer so urgent

It is not the era that enters the network.

Anytime, Anywhere

It’s OK

Lovesickness

Miss you

No longer so urgent

Not Forgotten

But because

As time goes

Once the deep feeling

It’s getting lighter and lighter

Looking at You drifting away

Looking out for a long time

I can’t see you

Stop walking like flying

Hot heart

It will also be because of repeated

My heart is like a dead gray

Dilute passion

Miss you

No longer so emotional

Maybe

Maybe it’s because

I have missed the blooming flowers

We are unable to guess

Right now

Warm winter climate

Induced early maturity in spring

Or

The season is also accompanied

Keep pace with the times

Early Spring

Or early spring

I don’t know

Heart

Can’t tell the taste

……

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Outer Moon

The corridor of the emergency department of the hospital was chaotic.

The patient was groaning and struggling. Relatives are anxious, sad, tired, embarrassed but helpless. Hospital reception counter of nurses asked with strict eyes and sound quality.

Only the doctor was calm, not looking up, asking two words in no hurry, knocking on the keyboard crackingly.

I will never come to this place again.

The night three and a half years ago, you were lying in the high hospital bed in this corridor, calling my name one after another, not letting me leave you half a step, you must be struggling in horror, feeling that you are sinking into the abyss. In the intensive care unit, I squatted beside your hospital bed and kept rubbing your feet. You must feel cold and numb. In the rescue bed, four or five doctors surrounded you. They drove me aside. I was full of tears, but I could only pray. I could only keep you in my heart. Besides, there is no way.

At two o’clock that morning, I looked for a doctor, who was still treating the new patient without delay, indifferent and decisive. At four o’clock in the morning that day, at this moment, you suddenly vomited, and several doctors came in a hurry to discuss the treatment plan. Give you blood, we push you to do all kinds of tests, and then wait anxiously for the results to come out.

At that time, I really thought that you would survive. You were always healthy, cheerful and kind and respectable.

I sat on the chair and looked at every place that was unforgettable, as if there were your painful face and your warm breath.

Tears poured out of my eyes, the mask was wet, and I didn’t want to take it off. Our dear elder sister sat beside me and looked at me with her eyes from time to time. She survived with you that day. She knew my mind and she must be very sad.

Big Brother-in-law suddenly felt very bad tonight. I had no choice but to come to this sad place.

Still anxiously waiting for the examination results, I walked slowly to the outside. It was very hot during the day and there was a freezing cold at night.

In the moonlight, it was my short shadow. I looked up and glanced at it. The dim gray clouds were round, big, bright, calm and cool, there seems to be a little loving looking at me.

I lowered my head. The Moon is out of the world. It has nothing to do with me, you or the chaos in the emergency room.

I knew today was the 15th day. In the evening, my baby and I were at home. Suddenly I caught a glimpse of the full moon outside the window. I looked at the calendar.

The path in the garden in front of the door is shining with pale light. It is from here that we push you to the surgical inpatient department and to the last moment of your life. At that time, the sun was very dazzling. I talked to you gently. There was a light in your eyes, and my tears were spinning in my eyes.

The impatient building building is not far away. A fan of Windows is bright, and how much pain and suffering are hidden in it.

Dark red cigarette butts are tiny and hopeless in the moonlight. No one knows that kind of struggle and despair, and the cigarette with tears, are so bitter.

Baby is alone at home. I hope he will fall asleep peacefully and have sweet dreams, just like all the people who fall asleep quietly.

May 26, 2021

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