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It seems that I haven’t written anything for a long time! The sun is still so poisonous and spicy, and the mood is still the same. This year’s time passed so fast. Except for a so-called relationship, it seems that nothing has been left. I don’t know how to start, I don’t know how to tie the bundle.

I remember that there was a mushroom cool who rushed to hug you with joy at the beginning. I miss the scene at that time very much. It has nothing to do with any external factors. I am happy to be together and talk about my future life together, all the good things went out in a blink of an eye, as if they had never been seen before.

There were heavy rains everywhere one after another, and all kinds of floods and disasters arrived, which made people overwhelmed. Maybe you don’t know, I like rain very much. Because after the heavy rain, the air is always filled with melancholy, maybe I have always been a melancholy person. But somehow, this year, I am especially tired of the endless weather of sunny and thunderstorm.

A few days ago, I took shelter from the rain in the convenience store. Looking around, there were many people who didn’t like to bring umbrellas, and some secretly felt relieved. Suddenly, I felt that this group of people who were embarrassed to hide from the rain seemed to leave home Little Fugitive one by one, waiting anxiously for someone to claim it. It’s just that I’m waiting for the rain to stop. It is said that children without umbrellas should run hard,

I never thought I would miss you like this, nor did I think that one day you would leave. I always planned the future for us without authorization and imagined many wedding scenes, it happened that all these became fantasies. When I thought about them, I always couldn’t help thinking about them in my mind, and then I completely forgot that there was such a thing as wishful thinking. So that finally, unconsciously, my wishful thinking brought your separation. “Zheng Shaoqin, Zheng Jingyi” how painful a few words, when the child does not have the moment who can know the pain in my heart, a person hiding in the toilet crying in the middle of the night, after crying, wash your face and then sleep. Maybe money is really important. I was naive to think that someone really didn’t care about it. Ha ha, silly or not.

I have always felt that breaking up is a very serious matter. It seems that we started with words on WeChat and ended with words on WeChat. From the beginning to the end, there seemed to be no phone call, it makes two people who once fell in love become strangers instantly. Even if they feel so deep that the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, they will not be able to say that they don’t want to marry. Maybe you don’t love you as much as I do, our love is too fragile to hold up our dreams. We can’t beat the reality. Finally, we can separate. It seems that we are not so sad when we think about it.

We have been separated for 17 days, and we have broken up for 13 days. So fast, we have all had a tacit understanding for 7 days and have never contacted each other again, as if we have never appeared in each other’s lives. Now I will only suddenly think of you in a specific situation. Maybe this is also the best ending.

At this moment, I miss you again, but I can’t find any reason for you to continue. You don’t want to see me now. I always use cigarettes to paralyze myself, the smell of alcohol on my body makes me hate myself. Looking at the house full of traces of you, there will always be inexplicable sadness.

At night, touch your face with your hands, empty, leaving only tears on your face.

Maybe there is no chance that the story will end here.

Bye-bye! Each is well!

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…

After all, you still let me leave in my most feared way!

It’s getting colder and colder

More and more things

Thinking of last year’s present

I first met you

Everything is so beautiful

Accompany you to work every night

I can chat with you until late at night every night.

Under the weekend sun

Our Shadow is swaying

Everything is like a dream

In this silent room

It’s over

I heard

The sound of heart breaking

It’s so harsh

I see

Your figure

More and more blurred

I want to lift my weak left hand

Try to hold your pace

Everything in reality makes me

Can’t afford to lift

But I can’t let it go

The wind shivered in the cold night.

Strange changes in midnight dreams

Every time I Dream of You

But always pass

I don’t want to miss it

Still want me to forget

Forget all the parting and goodbye

No more news from you

No more your response

All the familiar past

Knowing that you are in this city

Ink red fluid can’t bring everything to you

It’s vicissitudes of life

Or the dark night epiphyllum

When the prosperity is over

Where are you

Thoughts falling in my heart

Deceive the inner silence

Ah

I’m still trying

Waiting for You

I don’t have the ability

Then work hard!

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

The edge is scattered, just like clouds. Think about how many friends who have not been contacted exist silently in your address book. It’s not that I don’t want to contact, it’s really cruel life, time and space change, you and I have no intersection.

Life is just a journey, you meet me occasionally, I meet you, practice on the road, each forward. Instead of seeing each other, it is better to miss, rather than entanglement, it is better to follow the fate.

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…

My heart hesitates and worries like silk,

Can you know that love is lingering?

Cold Moon silent Qin beauty,

Hua Yan candle is looking forward to the next life!

Zan (prose editor: Yue ran) Phoenix mountain spring outing

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

He has been studying abroad for four years, and I have no intention to know that he has been keeping in touch with my good friend Jingjing to learn about my latest developments. But those four years were a nightmare for me. I kept escaping every day, avoiding facing the real life and bearing a heart of fear all the time. My whole body and mind were in fear, when I saw him again, he was already a father. On that day, when college classmates gathered, we were silent. I saw his eyes were full of thoughts, and I saw him become very mature. Looking at his wife, I have a familiar feeling. I look carefully. My eyes and teeth are like a person, especially a smile. Looking at them, they look very similar to me. I once remembered that he wanted to find a cheerful, optimistic and smiling person, hoping that this woman could bring him happiness and happiness. Thinking of ten years ago, our personalities were too similar and childish. I didn’t expect time to catalyze him into a strong and solid middle-aged man. In the past, Green Day always mistook him for his mother BABY. Maybe this is fate. Some people are destined to be a symbol in life and a beautiful memory. At the right time, meeting the right person is fate, that is a blessing in life. Looking through his WeChat and seeing his wife and son, we knew that we got married in the same year and had children in the same year. Thinking of a long time ago, before he went to Australia to study abroad, he confessed to me on QQ, but why didn’t I promise at that time, maybe it was fear. I was afraid that he would look down on my brother, maybe it is worried that he fell in love with his classmates when he went to study abroad. Later, he chatted with me again and told me a lot of things. I still didn’t agree. I wanted to be injured I am for fear that I couldn’t stand the blow of lovelorn. Later, we met again. He asked me again and again if I had a boyfriend. I said there was a man chasing him. He also said that there was a girl chasing him, I know he still hasn’t given up on me, but I am still not touched by him. Maybe we are doomed to have no fate in this life. Only after that time did I know that it was the last conversation that we were single. Everyone had his own destiny. When I met him, I couldn’t choose. Maybe this was fate. A time of love, I wandered in another place; When I came, he walked into the next intersection. Therefore, between walking and stopping, many people missed each other’s fate. Many years later, I was surprised to find that we are the people of the same world. I never looked at the boy who was close to me when I was in college, and even said no praise, so I refused him out. Phobia is really terrible. It subverts my outlook on life and values and makes me make different choices. Only then did I understand how ridiculous my thoughts were at that time when I was suffering from phobia. At that time, I, how pitiful, in order to protect yourself from getting hurt, I frozen my heart to the valley until I turned myself into a terrible hedgehog. Most of the time, we are not afraid of losing. More importantly, we can’t let go. We always thought that others would not accept such an ending. We didn’t think that the person who couldn’t accept such an ending was ourselves. The vast sea of people, how many people really find their most perfect belonging, how many people miss the best chance in passing, or how many people are standing at the wrong time and place in the right choice. If they have time to stay between people’s thoughts, give them some time to make missing become a kind of fault. Those years, our ignorant years; Those years, the love we missed, Haruki Murakami, said that if we love each other, we can carry our hands to the old; If we miss it, we will protect him well.

Zan (prose editor: Ke Er) Phoenix mountain spring outing

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Zhou Jing, a name that makes my heart beat and impulse.

She, my middle school classmate. The face is fair, the appearance is good, and it is considerate. Therefore, in our class, she huamel Noble like a princess.

At the first sight of her, I fell completely. Those beautiful big eyes, shining with charming brilliance, hit me instantly like bullets, it took only 0.0 seconds to capture my whole body and mind, making me love her.

That summer, I realized my college dream.

In the second year, Zhou Jing miraculously recorded the Hydropower Institute which was only one wall away from our school.

On the day she checked in, I went to their school to find her with anxiety. The new student newspaper is everywhere. When I see her plump and high, my heart is empty and itchy……

Zhou Jing in front of him is more charming and charming than that of middle school. I was suddenly in a mess and ran to meet with trembling mood!

On the way to find her dormitory, my heart drifted along her steps on the tree-lined path of their school. Taking advantage of the chaos, I walked to her boldly and summoned up the courage to strike up a conversation with her.

That day, we said a lot. To be honest, this meeting gave me an excellent impression. It encouraged me and gave me the courage and confidence to approach her. From then on, everything around me disappeared, and the sun, moon and stars rose and fell, but I didn’t know the day and night.

The following development made me very happy. I had frequent contacts and pleasant exchanges with Zhou Jing. She didn’t defend me, allowing me to approach her freely. This discount alone raised my soul beyond my own height.

From then on, I think falling in love with someone is a happy thing and a torment thing. In order to see her entity and say a few words to her, I tried my best!

“I’m going to find Zhou Jing!” As soon as Zhou didn’t arrive, I looked at the beautiful sky happily and shouted. After dinner, nothing can be done. Everything is intertwined in this expectation.

I also decided to go to Zhou Jing less frequently. But can I do it? I am tempted every day, and I make a sacred promise every day in my heart: “Don’t go to Zhou Jing next week!” However, when I arrived next week, I found another reason that I couldn’t reply. In a flash, I arrived at the door of her dormitory. Or the last time she broke up, she said, “See you next week!” Zhou Jing said so. Why don’t I go to her!

Of course, Zhou Jing often came to my dormitory to find me. At that time, I was really very happy. As soon as her figure flashed in the window of the dormitory, I couldn’t control myself. My eyes followed her figure. I hoped to hear her magnetic voice, eager for her to call my name, and thought that was the most beautiful melody in the world.

Zhou Jing and I often go for a walk along the Xiangjiang River. She walked in front, I followed behind, we walked and talked endlessly. When she moved closer to me for the convenience of conversation, the wonderful breath out of her mouth could be sent to my lips. At this time, I was like being shocked, the body is going to collapse. When my hands accidentally touched her or our bodies accidentally collided, oh my God! The blood rushed around me, and I immediately retracted like a fire. However, a hidden force was pulling me forward again, and all my senses were dizzy, like flying clouds and fog.

During the conversation, she accidentally passed her eyes, and I would tremble, be happy, sad and depressed…… All my thoughts were intoxicated in her tender eyes, and I was so excited that I became immortal. Only at this time can I freely appreciate her black eyes. Her vivid lips and lively cheeks attracted my whole soul without hesitation.

She opened her mouth and just spit out a note, I was completely intoxicated in her wonderful voice. All my body and mind immediately integrated into the world of Only me and her, it seems that being with her is everything to me. Besides, I have nothing to think, nothing to feel, nothing to ask for. All the pain, disorder and depression that troubled me disappeared without a trace. She mentioned every word of mine, more like the harvest year in the wild scene, which made me think about it endlessly, you have to narrow and dry the bone marrow in that sentence. Therefore, I became a man deprived of all thoughts and freedom, immersed in the world given to me by Zhou Jing, enjoying the sweetness of wishful thinking.

Alas! It turns out that I am only one step away from heaven, wonderful!

Later, she turned language into a trickle into my heart to moisten, heal and comfort my heart, and let me feel and appreciate many rich and profound meanings, and enjoy her painstaking care.

Slowly, Zhou Jing and I talked about everything, literature, dreams, life……

With the passage of time, I gradually found that Zhou Jing is a person who gets along more and more liked.

Although I knew she was beyond my reach, I really couldn’t control my emotions.

After graduating from college, I went south to Guangzhou and Zhou Jing went back to my hometown Yiyang.

Later, we became families. However, my relationship with Zhou Jing was like a pot of fine wine, which was hidden in the cellar. Occasionally, I open it and smell it. I feel that my heart is full of mellow fragrance, and there is also the aftertaste of love?

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) Phoenix Mountain Spring Tour

After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon…

Enter June

In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

Linjia Lane

Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city…

The confusion of summer night

I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool…

Love story

Lover dies, lover…

Cold and sunny

The sunshine is very good. I shot in through the window. My face felt a little hot, but my hands were still cool.

I sat at the window and desk.

My mind was blank, and my eyes were sore, so I could do nothing with the hard sunshine.

Because it doesn’t shine in my heart.

The air conditioner is still working hard, blowing the same warm air. The house is quite warm. Sunshine brings light, and warmth depends on it.

Outside the window is the world of the sun, but also the cold world. Seven or eight degrees below zero, it is rare here at noon. Such bright sunshine seems to be a lie.

The blue sky, without clouds, seems to be a lie, sunny and false.

No flowers, no green trees, no birds, and few pedestrians. The sky is just clear, and the sky is only clear.

So many people in the past were in books, or suffering, or struggling, or happiness, spread out on the table, the sun shone on it, the night was still the night, and tears were still moist. I occasionally immersed in it, but soon, those sufferings or happiness fell into the blank abyss in my mind, and there was no reply.

Some bright light like a hairline, walking upstream of the book, Walking upstream of my hand. I don’t know where it came from or where it went. Perhaps, they are not wandering at all. The first one has disappeared in the universe, and the later one has entered in ignorance. For the universe, it is not even a moment.

I only looked at them a few times and felt bored. They didn’t come to see me.

Lit a cigarette, the cigarette went out from my fingers, and even flew to the window without knowing the height and height, flying to the sunshine, but unfortunately there was no place for it to escape, and he came back in a conversation, it seems that there are some shadows flying over the book, but unfortunately the shadow is not bright golden.

I opened the window, but the smoke quickly fled to the room. The clear world did not contain it, it was a lie, no sorrow and sadness, that was afraid of being burned into smoke, it is also toxic.

And the cold air rushed in immediately, and they didn’t want to let go of every warm corner. Although there was no sound, although there was a brilliant lie, it was cold, which made me shrink into the cold immediately.

I shut the cold out of the window, and there was a string of small shadows in the book. I knew that it was the dirt left on the window glass by years. I haven’t noticed them at ordinary times, but at the moment, they are like a string of vicious eyes.

The whole world is sunny, but that is a lie.

I curled up in this small house, my mind was blank, but I was awake.

I know you must see TTL far away today. The weather is so clear, but the air is cold. The tombstone you just raised last week must have cast a black shadow.

I dreamed of you last night. The warm smile was real, not like the sunshine outside the window and the lies of the whole world.

December 30, 2020

Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) remember the past, a little more youth without any regrets

Lao Gen said: I have a new idea. Draw the scene of Nangang reservoir more carefully. Let’s remember the past and have more youth…

Silly girl

Before last October, I worked and lived in Hongqiao town. This is an ordinary small town in southern Sichuan, the only one that can highlight local characteristics…

You have to go, I will go with you

Recently, I have been listening to teacher Jiang Xun talking about a dream of Red Mansions. I really think it is quite good! He said such an interesting…

Birthday soul

I stood up and stared at the kind name on your tombstone. The warmth of the tombstone gradually dispersed. I raised my head and the sky was clean…

Liu Ma and her son

Wang Xin, the eldest son of Liu Ma, finally became a family at the age of 32, but she always felt uneasy. The ins and outs of things are really difficult…

The Gleaners under the persimmon tree

Lao Gen was silent and a little sad. He thought of Xiaofang, who had liked him when he was young. (Xiaofang: now they are educated young people who liked the countryside…